I am in australia now. Basically I have constant severe mood swings eer since I have gotten here. I will have a couple hours of being super happy and loving being here then I will get bored or lonely and hate it here. I know I am lucky and it supposidly will get much better but right now I am just so bored and I hate having no friends. This is the amest saturday night ever. A movie by myself then take out chinese and watching wily wonka bc it is on tv. Sweet night. I might crack ope a bottle of wine soon and drink it up. Seems like as good of an idea as any. I cant take today off. I have had at least 2 glasses of wine everyday that I have been here. Plus last night I drank japanese beers, a creepy chocolatey shot, and the nastiest long island iced tea of my life ( I had to chase every sip with coke bc I couldnt handle its strength). I might just become an alchy when I get bored. At least it will be better then staring at the wall and watching super lame tv!

I honestly forgot livejournal even existed for about the last month. I have been so insanely busy with teaching. I feel like I spend so much freakin time lesson planning. I really think I spend like 5 hours a day lesson planning. I am getting tired of spending all my time on it but I know this is only the begining. I want to go out with my friends more but then I do not get things done and it sucks. I feel like I miss out on so much stuff and it pisses me off but I guess it is something I need to do. I find myself getting so upset over everything I miss. i have missed going tolexington and about 3 movies along with a bunch of late nights drinking. I want to go so bad but I have to prioritize which sucks.

I feel like a am being a bethanne and never chillin. I can see aubrey, becky, and megan gettinf closer right in front of my eyes. I am happy for them and what not but I am really jealous at the same time. it is really mixed feelings becasue I want to hang with them all the time but I am happy to be getting so close to graduation and really knowing what I want to do and getting close. I also am happy that I have such a great boyfriend but I wish I didn't have to go 45 minutes away to hang with him then miss everything that happens here.

ah whatever. I need to stop complaining I have it pretty good I guess.

So, it is christmas eve and I am at work. FUN TIMES!! it is kinda cute though because these little kids were down here and they were taking the cookies and they were arguing over what kind of cookie santa would want tonight. I forgot what it is like to be around little kids at christmas. It makes the holiday so much more fun. My nephew was so pumped today when he opened gifts and he just yells ho ho all the time because he gets totally pumped when he sees pics of santa.

I opened my presents and after doing so realized I forgot to wrap like half of them. I totally didn't wrap any of the clothes that I had bought and claimed was for christmas. I had already worn about half of it to be honest. It seemed like not a lot of gifts to unwrap but the ones I did unrap I liked. I got diamond earings from Tony and a real pearl necklace from my sis. I feel bad bc I bought her a belt and didn't even wrap it. I also got sweet wall art from IKEA and a camera. Life will be good from now on!

I feel like all I do is freak about next semester in all my free time. I organize stuff for Australia, make lists of things not to forget to do, call people and e-mail people, and try to figure out everything about this stupid visa I need. If not doing that then I am getting ready for teaching at Scott on Jan.3. Man, I have to actually teach psychology in like 2 weeks. I am not ready yet!!!!

I just want to party my face off right now. I miss my friends and it has only been like 2 or 3 days since I hung with them last.

Yo YO!

I am so hapy all the time now because I am done with school and I only work like 3 days right now. I have massive free time and I get to sit and around do nothing and sleep. It is totally sweet and I love it!!!

Yesterday I was in a super good mood all day and all I did was move furniture, clean my new room and work. They wound lame and boring but I enjoyed it because I am on endorphins or something.

Like today all I did was cancel appointements (laziness) and watch Law and Order for like 4 hours and yet it is has been great.

The only thing bringing me down right now is all this confusion about getting my visa for Australia. People are retarded and no one knows what is going on. blah

So, I believe it is official unless something big changes it again but I will be going to Australia! I am going to be leaving like Feb.10 or something soon like that and I don't come back until April 11. It is sooo exciting! The only way i wont go now is if I don't have enough time to get stuff done such as a visa or things like that. I will have to check on it this week to make sure all of that shit can be done still. WOW this is sweet! it is actually happening or at least I hope it is!

Man I am ridiculously tired. I need more sleep that party wore me out last night. The Limo was freaking the sweetest thing eva! I need to get me one of those!


I love Bruce Willis!

I FUCKING HATE WARM98!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is annoying the shit out of me and I can't turn it off at work!!!!

damn

I am at work right now and I am in a pissy ass mood. The lady I work with Linda pisses me off evertime I see her and I just want to tell her to her face how much I loath her but I am too polite to do so. She is such a suck up who blames others such as myself for her mistakes so that she can look good. She even has the audacity to e-mail my dad and blame me for shit. Damn, I cannot stand this woman and she keeps talking to me like I am her friend or I like her or something. She is a creepy, old, alcoholic, dirty ass lady!!!!

oh and I am also annoyed that Annie and Karen always want to hang out on Saturday b/c I always work and can never hang out since they usually don't stay up too late and party.

I need to go out and drink my face off because that will make all things in life better. sad but slightly true!

I am moving on out and cleaning parties are all the rage. I just pulled push pins out of the wall for like 20 minutes then I ripped tape off pictures and folded clothes for like an hour. It has been so much fun! I should be studying for my finals but I am nt in the mood so whatev.

Aubrey and I have been talking about spiders a lot lately. What if one crawled up in your vag and took a nap on your clitoris? that would be creepy as hell but it might feel kinda good! haha

I am so excited about being done with school!!!!!!!!! I hope I get sent to Guadalajara, it looks really pretty there and the weather seems quite pleasant.

NKU ed. program brought a bunch of Brazilians here to speak at NKU about Cultural Diversity and what education is like abroad and they are staying at the hotel. ALso staying at the hotel is a NKU teacher/representative who is hanging out with the brazilians and basically sucking up to them all night.

I was standing at the front desk talking to a guest who was asking me questions and he was a really dark black guy in a camo shirt. The NKU teach rep walks by and gives me a weird look. I ignore it but then I get a call at the desk. It was the NKU lady and she was like "is everything alright? I was worried when I saw you there I just wanted to make sure you were ok" At first I had absolutely no idea what she was talking about then I realized she thought the black guy was like hassling me or something. I was like wow, this lady is straight up racist. I was having a friendly convo with this guy who was a coach from bowling green Kentucky and this lady thinks I am being robbed or something.

Basically I was just kind of disgusted that the lady sent to go to the hotel and suck up to the brazilians speaking about cultural diversity was a blatant racist.

sometimes people's stupidity makes me laugh

To all the bitches out there who are mad at me for not writing in here I am back. Hopefully this will not be a one time thing and I can remember to do it all the time like I used to. If not then we can laugh in like 6 months when we read this entry and I am all like I promise to write every day. I am really bad at journals. Honestly I probably have like 6 journals that I have started and made it like a month on. I even had a dream journal which was really funny when I went back and looked at it. I also made a new years resolution to start a diary when I was in like middle school. I really wish I had stuck to my guns because that thing would be freaking hilarious if I read that today.

So, i have not written on here in months but I am going to try to keep up a little better. School s insane and I am pretty freaking busy all the time. I have never had such a set strict schedule that I have to go by in order to get everything done. well, things are going good for me right now. I havent gone to school all week bc of weather which rocks but I didn't get any homework done bc I forgot my backpack. ohhh so sad. well things are good with Tony and as a matter of fact we are going ou for v-day tonight. He is staying with me for like 3 days. LOng weekend hope we dont fight or anything like in my last entry. I think we will be fine though bc we dont really fight too often. Well I have to go buy his gift. exciting!!!

Wow, I am not so sure about this whole relationship thing anymore. This is the first time that Tony and I have been together for this long. 3 days and we get into a fight. it wasn't even a big fight. It was a stupid drunk fight but it is apparently a big deal. I hate that our weekend ended with a fight because it kind of put a damper on the whole thing.

I feel like he doesnt really listen to me. I dont think he understands me at all. When we talked about the fight he couldn't see where I was coming from at all. i felt like the more we tried to resolve it the more mad we both became. I finally just gave up and apologized for things I didn't even do on purpose but he never seemed to be satisfied. I just wanted to stop fighting. It is to early for this. I hope this isn't foreshadowing of what is to come. I won't make it very long if it is. I hope it was just drunken, stupid, and exagerrated. And I hope time apart will make it better again.

I am tired of thinking about it. It has ruined my entire day.

I am so in love! I am in love with Hot Tea. It is all I want to drink day in and out. The British knew what they were doing when they started having tea time. I want to start having tea time. Would anyone like to join me for a cup of tea? mmmmmmmmm...

My favorite Tea is Earl Grey. It is just fantastic. You should try it if you have not yet done so.


I am soo tired, I ate a lot of turkey today and that special turkey enzyme that makes you tired is hitting me good and hard right now. My eyes are peeled open though, I think that is from all the Tea. hmmmm, Turkey and Tea--maybe not the best combination!

So, It occured to me today that I do indeed have a live journal and that I had forgotten about its existence for the last 2 weeks. I have been so busy lately that I haven't even had time for this. So lets catch up, I went to D.C. that was pretty much fun. I liked taking the random pictures in front of statues the most and it was nice seeing my sister. The drive wasn't too bad either. I met the ghost of Sasquatch! Things that sucked about the trip where that I didn't have enough money to splurge on shopping like I would have liked too, I never got super drunk like I had wanted to, drinks were expensive as hell, BA didn't get a random hook up and I really wanted her to, and I missed going to a wedding with Tony which would have been really fun.

Other than DC I have been doing the same old stuff. Drinking with the ladies, going to school, and working to make up for being gone in DC. I got to see Tony for the first time in over a week last night. It was great. You know it is true what they say that absence makes the heart grow fonder because I sware I like him more now than ever and I really missed him a lot more than I thought I would have. Weird, I am not used to this kind of stuff.

I got wasted as shit on Friday and went to a PKA Halloween party. It was pretty sweet. I was from the 80s and I had about a half a bottle of Tequila before I got there. I do not remeber everything about that night. I have not been that drunk in a really long time. I miss it, but I dont miss the puking until 5 pm the next day. That sucks pretty badly.

All in all life is good and I am already excited as shit for it to be Wednesday and then into the weekend for Camping!

I just witnessed the funniest thing ever. This really old guy could not find the cookies anywhere. He was roming around the breakfast room looking for them then I told him we have them they are by the front desk. He came out here and started looking around by the couch for them and accident;y found the apples. I kept telling him they were up here and pointing at them on my desk but he didn't understand. He just kept spinning around and saying, "well doggonit, I just can't seem to find these cookie." I was trying so hard not to laugh in his face but I couldnt help it. it was sooo funny I kept tapping the cookies and yelling to get his attention but he was so out of it. He finally did find them though.

Oh and we have some kind of promotional bikini team staying here tonight. I love all the sexy ladies!

I am tired as shit tonight and I dont want to do my homework. I dont even feel like going out tonight but I am sure I will. Last night was freaking great. Main Strauss was pretty good to me.

After everything that I have been through today. All it takes is one text to make things good again.


from Tony:
I just wanted to say how awesome you are, just in case you didn't know.


totally random but totally made my day!

Well my day started out with my alarm not going off and me waking up at 9:30 when my class starts at 9am. So I freak out for a minute then realize it is not even worth it for me to go late. I then get on the computer to e-mail the teacher and ask for her forgiveness because I had a project due which I had been freaking out about for like 2 days but finally got done. I am pretty sure she will take it late but I will probably lose points which sucks ass cause I didn't do so great on my test in that class and I hate the subject matter.

I then watch tv for awhile and decide to eat lunch. When I am by the fridge i notice the horrible smell coming from the closet. I open it to find an overflowing can of garbage with moldy food on top and a swarm of gnats attacking the room. Itsmells aweful and there is also 2 other bags of garbage and 2 boes stuffed full of half eaten gross ass food. I am so grosses out that I can't even begin to think about lunch any more. I decide to just take care of it by myself b/c my roomates will not do it unless i physically force them too and I hardly see them since my schedule is different. (I have been at the apartment for about 10 hrs when not sleeping over the last week or so and I know this is not my garbage)but I can't live in filth unlike my roomies so i carry all the garbage down the 3 flights of stairs and pack into my car(which now smells) and drive it to the dumpster. I was a sweaty nasty mess after and the gnats have gotten into the rest of the apartment now but whatever.

after this I decide to leave a half hour early to get to my 1:40 class so that I can drop off the paper I didn't get to turn in this morning and i can stop to get gas. Well about 5 minutes into my drive down turkeyfoot I stop....completely. A car about 3 in front of me has run off the road. I sat there and watched the cops show up, then the fire dept, and then the ambulence. I finaly manage to turn around and head back owards the apt. and to 75. Long story short I get to class 15 minutes late and dont get to make my stops.

After class I head to work and am running late as usual. On the highway i notice my sideview mirror is about to fall off my car so I stick my hand out the window and hold it on for the rest of the way. I realize i NEED to get gas and now, before I go to work. So I pass work and head to the gas station. i actually manage to run out of gas in the gas station parking lot before i reach the pump. SWEET! so anyway I finally get the gas and show up to work 30 minutes late.

AND THAT WAS MY MORNING. I really hope work goes smooth!

there is someone who is driving me up a wall right now. I am sorry that I have a boyfriend and you do not. This must be strange for you since you always have one and I never do. However, that is no reason to act like a 5 year old and sabotage my relationship.

Jealousy can make people do some retarded things and this weekend was certainly no exception. I just hope she gets a boyfriend so she will get off my case.

You can't be as mad as she acts like she is yet have no logical explanation why. He apologized twice and yet does not know what he did. he bought us food, alcohol, and even an air matress so that we would be more comfortable, and you, you now have given me an ultimatum. What-the -fuck ever!

Man. this weekend is going to rock so hard. I am beyond pumped! Friday drinking with my ladies and my fam. Good times are gauranteed. I love camping so much and I am sooo looking forward to this. Then saturday night we head to Dayton!!! I get to see Tony again and I get to play drinking games at the block party. AHHHHHHH I dont know which night I am more excited about!


Oh, and by the way. I have a Boyfriend now!! Life is crazy.

I LOVE SNOW PATROL RIGHT NOW!

whenever I listen to snow patrol I think of Tony. And I get carried away and start daydreaming. Man, I am a loser. I talked to him on the phone tonight. He told me that he couldn't look at any other girl. ah, that is sweet. He is sweet. Snow Patrol is sweet. Hot Tea is sweet. I am all giddy and happy right now.

I really can't study. SHIT